Hyperventilating – Abstract (feat. Ivan B & YONAS)
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[Abstract:] 17 with a pen and a pad, writing out my life making sense of my past Tryna find the light through a sensitive mask I don’t take it off till I’m deep in a track Speaking to myself just reflecting off of the page Who knew the passive kid was just good at passing the rage Off into a song so it couldn’t live in the cage That sat upon his shoulders just hiding behind his face Back when it was simple, before it was a job, before the expectations, before I knew the odds Back when it was just a broken heart I had to fix Now I’m scared that I’ve been broken since I made a couple hits Fans want me to fly but they keep me on a leash Fears of losing me to a level that they can’t reach This the life I chose and they tell me that I’m a beast But all I wanted was the beauty, all I’m searching for is peace
Can someone help me catch my breathe My heart is beating out my chest, hyperventilating I thought I was waiting, on someone to save me But I’m finding lately, all I can count on to not drive me crazy Is being right here for the person who needs me But holding myself up it ain’t been to easy
[Ivan B:] They give me pain then I elevate Replicate the feeling When I meditate Can’t find my state of mind When I’m out of state If I take a break I’ma break Overthink When I don’t wanna think Wash my thoughts I don’t wanna sink in them Pointing out my fears Like what you think of them Counting out the years Like What you leave in them Dropping every classic How you sleep on him How you sleep on him Lately I’ve been keeping a secret Of always feeling defeated Feelin the Blisters on my feet I see Y’all kicking your feet up Don’t call me to kick it I’m on a track I don’t mean a meet up If you ain’t working You’re working to keep up Can’t see me I’ll Sia, (Aye!) Out of breath I’ve been a mess Too many choices Been a guess Overworking cause I know the waters coming For the neck Doing more And feeling less Is that a recipe I’ll test Looking out the window Got a question for the blessed
[Abstract:] Can someone help me catch my breathe My heart is beating out my chest, hyperventilating I thought I was waiting, on someone to save me But I’m finding lately, all I can count on to not drive me crazy Is being right here for the person who needs me But holding myself up it ain’t been to easy
[YONAS:] Truth be told, I’ve been awake I went from starving to having the competition on my dinner plate And I don’t say that to intimidate I just want these gimmicky rappers to step aside so I can innovate I built my whole studio inside my living space So I’m right at home with the lyricism I illustrate I give people their flowers while they can smell ’em And not a minute late cuz then they start to disintegrate Rose pedals, and falsettos They never really make it to these dark ghetto’s So Air Jordan’s, and Margiela’s, in Dark yellow Will shield me from the rain when the storm settles. Damn It ain’t been easy, but I’m fine with that I put my heart into this music, it’s forever where you’ll find me at I’m in the future looking back at this rap like an artifact Tryna remember just where I started at