This will forever be an apology Cause I know somehow it will set me free I can’t hold onto the self-abuse It’s just not your fault, I missed my chance to bloom
Everything fades away We’ll all meet the same fate Even if you grow old or die alone What difference will it make? I’m obsolete, I’m obsolete So easy to replace I won’t deserve a chance at happiness Living this way
Just another line about the better days Finding peace in what you had I tell myself one day I’ll reminisce and say: “Things really weren’t so bad” Because can’t seem to let go So I’m the only one to blame For my bleak view on life Left all alone in the mundane
But I know you know what it feels like kid You once loved so much but you hate yourself for what you did So I’ll cry for help to find myself in everyone else That’s not that the person you thought you’d be
Fade away, fade away We’ll all meet the same fate Even if you grow old or die alone What difference will it make? I’m obsolete, I’m obsolete So easy to replace I won’t deserve a chance at happiness Living this way
It’s constant heartache to face the world time after time When you only have so much of it, I feel my life just slip by Is this all even real? Is there something more to this? All those moments we’ll miss when we’re knocked back into the abyss Would someone just give me a purpose to have Cause my past can’t be the best thing that ever happened to me This sadness just won’t stop defining me I lost my chance to leave to a promised land, to feel whole again
“I think about mortality continually. I won’t say constantly, but every day. And so, watching ourselves die is to me overwhelming evidence that there is no life after death. And the troubling, troubling consequence of this is you don’t have to be perfect, you just have to be good enough.”
Well there’s nothing left to see But an empty, worthless shell of a man And there’s nothing to be proud of I’ll never know who I am And with all those late-night thoughts Knowing in the back of my head, I’ll never see you again And the older that I get The more surprised I’ll fucking be I haven’t ended it all yet