Something’s stopping me Something’s shutting my mouth Every time you say things first I say them back but it doesn’t count
Deep routed But I don’t remember why Your hand on my lap made me shake And on the train home I cried If it’s what I dream I want Why can’t I let myself have it If it’s what I dream I need Why can’t I let myself feel it If it’s what I dream I want Why can’t I let myself like it If it’s what I dream I need Why am I so scared to keep it You asked if your hands were cold
I didn’t notice till you pointed it out I felt my brain turn and fold And then it was all I could think about I like your skin Just not on mine
If I can’t let you in Am I wasting both of our time If it’s what I dream I want Why can’t I let myself have it If it’s what I dream I need Why can’t I let myself feel it If it’s what I dream I want Why can’t I let myself like it If it’s what I dream I need Why am I so scared to keep it I’m only numb to the touch that’s not meant to cause pain I don’t recognise the feeling so it just goes away Am I scared of you or am I scared that I’m not I’m lonely when you’re here I’m lonely a lot Can’t tell if I’m killing time or if if this time is killing me Convincing myself you’re lying and you hate me really
Is this how it is Is this who I am Guilty from a kiss Rejecting your hand Its always the same Why can’t I change Why can’t I change Why can’t I change If it’s what I dream I want Why can’t I let myself have it If it’s what I dream I need Why can’t I let myself feel it If it’s what I dream I want Why can’t I let myself like it If it’s what I dream I need Why am I so scared to keep it If it’s what I dream I want
If it’s what I dream I want If it’s what I dream I need If it’s what I dream I want If it’s what I dream I need