Heart-Shaped Hologram – Stephanie Mabey

I lie awake when I’m alone
And I picture us
I dance with your mirage
Oh, I keep forgetting
You’re somewhere else with someone real
You’re laughing in their arms
While I’m in the dark
I don’t know why

I keep you in this heart-shaped hologram
Oh, I take you everywhere I am
It almost seems like you’re with me
Even though a heart-shaped hologram
Could never love me back or hold my hand
I still don’t know how to let you go

I miss the way it used to feel
When you reach for me
Was that just make-believe?
Oh, I keep forgetting
I close my eyes, and you appear
Like you’re my favorite dream
This can’t be good for me
I don’t know why

I keep you in this heart-shaped hologram
Oh, I take you everywhere I am
It almost seems like you’re with me
Even though a heart-shaped hologram
Could never love me back or hold my hand
I still don’t know how to let you go

I say I don’t need anybody
I keep you with me like a ghost
But what if I’m just terrified
I might not even know
What to do with someone who
Could love me back for real

I keep you in a heart-shaped hologram
I take you everywhere I am
It almost seems like you’re with me
Even though a heart-shaped hologram
Could never love me back or hold my hand
I still don’t know how to let you go