I Pushed The Button – Stephanie Mabey

I start out with blue prints and building blocks
I stack them up so high you can’t see the top
I calculate the best ways to make it fall
Before I swing the wrecking ball

I can’t help but break it down
I’ve got a heart that’s full of mushroom clouds
When it’s self-destructive
Like I’m wired to delete
Anything that might be good for me
Til I’m left with nothing
Cause I pushed the button

I count to three
Then watch the whole thing collapse
Oh I can’t wait to start again from scratch
But every time I get to the final piece
Oh I start disassembling

I can’t help but break it down
I’ve got a heart that’s full of mushroom clouds
When it’s self-destructive
Like I’m wired to delete
Anything that might be good for me
Til I’m left with nothing
Cause I pushed the button

But soon I’ll find the way
To build up something beautiful that stays
Cause deep down I know
That I detach the moment that
I throw the switch
Alight the match

Cause I can’t help but break it down
I’ve got a heart that’s full of mushroom clouds
When it’s self-destructive
Like I’m wired to delete
Anything that might be good for me
Til I’m left with nothing
Cause I pushed the button

This could be the last time that I undo
The standing bridge that’s taking me straight to you