People keep asking me why I do things how I do And all of this measuring influence I forgot you You and me hiding behind the monhegan hotel And you told me things that nobody around me would tell
That was the summer that everyone touched me at once One day they ignored me the next they were all down my pants You were in bed with me safe before anyone else You opened beside me and held me when I needed help
You and me lying together at night in my room You’ve been inside me forever, Judy Blume
I couldn’t carry a tune but I thought I could sing And no-one had told me that thoughts were a good or bad thing But I started noticing grown-ups would smile and cringe But you’d taught me that you could say anything you could think
I don’t remember my friends from gymnastics class But I remember when Deenie was at the school Dance buddy feeling her up in the locker room Margaret bored counting hats in the synagogue Davey was stirring the tea that she wouldn’t drink Tony was watching his so-called friend shoplifting All them lived in my head quietly whispering You are not so strange
I don’t remember the details of 7th grade All I remember is lying and being afraid But I won’t forget Katherine and Michael going all the way Steph on the scale in the bathroom alone that day Karen pretending to puke so her dad would stay Margaret arguing with god while she masturbated All of them next stop in my head like a love letter All of them saying Amanda you know better You are not to blame The world’s a frightening place So go on and think how you want You will not be alone in your thoughts Well you will but you won’t in a way Cause a girl thought it too in a book that the library bought
People’ll keep asking me why I do things like I do And from now on I’ll tell them Nick Cave and I’ll talk about you Judy, I can’t believe sometimes that I’m an adult And that girls like I was think that I have this shit figured out
You and me lying together at night in my room You’ll be inside us forever, Judy Blume