One More Time – Seth Anthony

I throw it all away just for one more day
If I could just see you one more time
I drink, the darkness unfolds
If I could just see you one more time

Five in the morning, I’m still drinkin’ hard liquor
Staring at the sky, damn how I miss ya
Depressed as hell, so I turn to entertaining
As I write this song the tears are falling on the paper
Mama used to whoop my ass with a leather belt
Daddy never gave a damn, said you did it to yourself
He dropped me off at Juve and he asked me why I was crying
Then he said it’s time to be a man, don’t let nobody try ya

If I could turn back time I would unwind
The clock so I could tell you how much I love you
I’m trying to make you proud but lately I’ve been falling
Hard to face your fears when you’re feeling like a savage
Fuck this money and fame, I’m done, they can have it
This song is overdue, I’m sorry my mind’s been crazy
This song’s for everyone who lost someone and can’t face it

I throw it all away just for one more day
If I could just see you one more time
I drink, the darkness unfolds
If I could just see you one more time

Last thing I told him was you a shitty father
I sent him to voicemail but he still kept calling
Sitting in the hotel, sniffing white lines
Then 3 hours later he died, he flatlined
And it killed me
My mind, it went crazy
Couldn’t make the funeral, them pills they had me wasted
You know what they say, it don’t kill you, make you stronger
But it’s hard to be a man growing up without a father

If I could turn back time I would unwind
A single touch, conversation, just a hug
I couldn’t kill the pain, so I started doing drugs
What the fuck!
And mama, I ain’t forget you
Since you been gone a piece of me has been missin’
Gotta drop another verse just for you
Don’t know if heaven exists but I hope it does for you

I throw it all away just for one more day
If I could just see you one more time
I drink, the darkness unfolds
If I could just see you one more time

Mama worked hard to keep the food up on the table
Yes sir, no ma’am, she was southern, she wasn’t playin’
Never seen a woman work so hard to feed her children
She said life’s what you make it and boy she wasn’t kiddin’
Hurt my heart bad she found out I was on them drugs
Took me to rehab, tears in her eyes, get better, son
Mama raised me better so you know I’m feeling low
I swear I wanted to change but the addiction had control

If I could turn back time I would unwind
All the times that I let you down and hurt ya
I’m dying inside, fuck, Mama, I miss ya
Last call we had you said, I’m so proud, son
I’ma do it for y’all, I know y’all smiling down
I wanna apologize ahead of time for my mistakes
And just save me a seat up at them pearly gates

I throw it all away just for one more day
If I could just see you one more time
I drink, the darkness unfolds
If I could just see you one more time