Feel it creep under my skin Fingers start to twitch The lonely pang of restlessness When there’s no one else around Do I even make a sound? Or am I just an echo Fading from their consciousness? Without the amniotic comfort Of being wrapped in someone else My mind is left to wander Lowered further down the well
When meditation Becomes suffocation Where to go? Throw myself into you
And I’m ashamed to admit it But it’s how I’ve come to be My past keeps biting at my feet I’ve refrained to ever bare it It’s not fair of me To burden my own company Oh Christ, it’s so goddamn pathetic How I only know myself In the context of someone else So tell everyone to exit View me in a vacuum Self-pity on a feedback loop
When meditation Becomes suffocation Where to go? Throw myself further down the well Where nobody can hear me yell No soul to console Just myself Until the echo begins to swell And rings pell mell No, I can’t bare to look Into what I fear most A face emerging Churning doubt Who will pull me out?